Mommyhood...

So I know this may be premature too say..but I LOVE being a mommy of two. Andrew and I came home from the hospital on a Saturday afternoon and he returend to work Monday morning..It was me and the boys from that point on...

After a year of preparing I was a little apprehensive about the change our lives were about to take bringing a newborn into the house. I think part of it was a fear of the unknown, wondering how I would handle the loss of certain freedoms again..mostly selfish things..
I had also witnessed people not handle the transition from one to two very well. I was getting geared up..hoping for the best but preparing for the worst..How would I handle lack of sleep and a super active toddler..how would the whole nursing thing work? How would I ever keep up with the house or errands or bills or taxes?
I have to say that thus far I am pleasantly suprised..I am more sleep deprived today than I have been for the last two weeks..and I am feeling pretty emotional but the last two weeks have been so fantastic. I feel like I have come into my element. I love this.I love my boys. I love this life that He has given me..
I think part of it is my personality. I love having alot to do. I love a challenge. I love that I have my moms "survivor" spirit that kicks in when most needed...but above all I feel the Lord sustaining me and giving me supernatural strength to make it through the day..I feel people praying for me and I feel so blessed.

New Life....

I feel you sustaining me in the still of the night

As I rock my child; you hold me tight

And as I look at the face of this new born son

I cannot fathom the depths of what you've done

A sacrifice I couldn't make

But I'm so glad that you took my place..

How is it that you love me; more than I love him?

When hes seemingly so innocent and I constantly sin..

As all of creation looks to you; I look at creation in my hands

What could it be; this life you've planned?

And as I abide in you for just a little while..

You make my world as new as this little mans smile

And sometimes I think about how close he is to you

Coming from your hands and placed inside my womb..

Just on the other side; I wonder

Did she hold him too?

Did she kiss his face and call his name; before I even knew?

Before the pink and blue....

(to be cont...)