Random Thoughts 2

Since so many people enjoyed the last one..here we go..10 mins on the clock.

thinking about quitting facebook and blogging. For such a private person it overwhelms me that so many people know so much...but I want to be open and transparent..i know occcasionally these things bless others.I just hate superficial communication and people feeling like they "know" you when they don't. Anyway, having a rough week. Seeking out my mentors to bounce things off of. Always want to be propelled forward into being better and living out loud and crazy for Jesus...hate feeling stuck..love psalm 103. He forgives ALL your sins and heals all your diseases. We have so many diseases don't we? Escapism is a thorn in the flesh.Escaping to anything other than Jesus. So this is kind of gloomy but thats how my mood has been lately. Praise God he lifts us out of the pit and renews our strength. God- how do people live without the hope that we have? Burger King for dinner..made the boys eggs. I don't even wanna know how much i spent on me eating out this week. At least i only spent fifteen bucks on groceries.Finding out if this baby is a boy peanut or girl peanut in May. Not that anxious..was so anxious with Jude..just started out Prep for toddler class...the GFI ministry and al the parenting classes at church has truly changed our lives. Forever grateful to the Ezzos and the work God is doing through them..grateful for new and transparent and real friends..building up my family around me...and mourning continually the loss of my sweet mom who passed on March 29th...does it ever get easier? no. I hate it for all the other motherless daughters out there.my heart is with you..you are forever changed and your world is never the same. I deal with closing myself off but trying to reach out to women I admire who can pour into my life. regretting the BK. looking forard to a relaxing weekend. Maybe the last blog post? we'll see...

Random Thoughts

Here are some unedited ramblings.....Proceed With Caution..for the next 10 mins going to type whatever comes to my head....


Wondering why all the good music today has such scummy lyrics...by good I mean stuff I want to listen to on the treadmill......thinking facebook may be an addiction..but where else can i talk and recconect to my childhood friends in England and PA. ..it would be so nice to do nothing but pklay with my boys all day long..speaking of which...so blessed to be a part of a church that directs us to bibvlical based parenting..it has made a huge diffence inour marriage and family..as well as in the boys.... hangtail hurts...back hurts..andrew went to get me a pizza even though i didn't weant it ..not feeling like eating..he kept soundling off stuff and b/c I paused at pizzza he ran out the door....ugh...i think he wants to faten me up or something ;-) going to dream center in the morning..hoping to see some new babies...so badly want more time to write all these great ideas I have down...especially one onfriendship i feel like i have learned alot over the last few years..and was talking toa girlfriend abou it yesterday....middle school is complicated but man, we canmake our adult relationships complicated....want to read so many books..wish i had photographic memory....thinking the baby is a boy...we had NO more boy baby names and thenm all of a sudden we had a first and middle..with the meaning we wanted- wondering if it was a god given name....both boys are named for the "season" we were in life....pizza is here...back still hurts...how come andrew always is "off the clock" and MY work is never done...hmmmm...time to pull the "pregnant" card.later taters.

NOPE

I don't get on my soapbox often but this is one issue I feel strongly about. I don't know if I would have gone as far as to call myself a one issue voter in the past but things change. If you don't value life then what do you value?I think where one stands on this issue says a whole lot about their character and their relationship to their creator. A very wise woman recently said to me "I will not have to stand before my creator one day and acknowledge that I voted for someone that made a mockery of HIS commandments."

Seriously- i like what these journalists have done. Check out the video clips...my personal "favorite" is him calling a baby "punishment" and then voting against the Born Alive Infant Protection act three times...I seriously hope Americans do not think it is going to be okay to let someone that thinks its better to leave an aborted baby that "accidently" lives lying on a table to die- as it is more convenient.

http://hotair.com/archives/2008/10/21/the-comprehensive-argument-against-barack-obama/

Here are two thing I came across today. I have neither the time or energy to write what I would about each... But I thought I would go ahead and post...

Creating Moments....

As I watched my mom die over a period of a few days there are things that she said that remain with me forever. ..These are the kind of things that if an unbeliever would have watched her leave this flesh he may have reached out to recieve the salvation she was embracing...some of these things I am going to keep in my heart but one of them I will share with you here.


Hollywood has always depicted images of ones life flashing before their eyes when they are passing over to the "other side." I had never thought much of that until I experienced these last moments with my mom. As she faced the last few days of her life she started to reminesce about various times and events in her life. As a young fifty year old women facing the end of her life she reflected on some memories. As she laid these moments out before me she was fading in and out of conciousness. At one point she told me how she was ready to go to be with Jesus and a day before she died she described how she saw Him and was walking with Him...I love the visual of my Lord that she left with me as she left me to be with Him. One of the moments in her life that she reflected on was of her and my dad as a young married couple returning home after an evening out and dancing to "lady in red." Mom described the scene and how romantic it was...a simple event but it had stuck with her throughout her whole life and remained at the forefront of her memory as she readied herself to exit this life.

I think about this often when I am making decisions and going about my day...about creating moments in life...One of my greatest fears is that I will grow old and look back on my life and have regrets..

I want to actively and purposefully create events in my life that will stay with me and be so bold that when I look back on my life I can smile and say "remember when...."

Most of the precious moments we create for ourselves are done so because we took initiative, we stepped out , or stepped back, or gave of our time or resources, or turned off the TV, or inconvenienced ourselves....these are the things that create opportunities to create moments that have the potential to be so strong they change our lives and eterntity forever...

What moments are you creating today?

update

Thank you all for your comments, emails, and prayers! I have actually been feeling better especially as far as the anxiety goes. It really varies from day to day..it seems I am either having a really good day or a really bad day- very little middle ground! well, I am off garage saleing- one of my favorite things to do!

Phillipians 3:10

I want to know Christ and the POWER that raised HIM from the dead.

Update

Yay! I still have readers!

I was "officially" diagnosed with post- partum on thursday by a professional. it was interesting that as part of my graduate work I studied depression and the spiritual and physical factors that play into it and what a life altering and debilitating mental illness it can be. I am starting on meds on Monday so we will see how that goes! I wish they had some way to measure serotonin levels.. that would be so great..then there would be no question about the physicality of it and if in fact meds actually correct the problem..

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Well, great if you are! I am so uber impressed with you. Please pat yourself on the back for me!

I always have thoughts about what I want to write on here but hardly ever get to it.. so here are some random thoughts ..please proceed with caution ;-)

Today I have felt overwhelmed. I have been fighting an overwhelming sense of depression and have been trying to discern if its spiritual or hormonal. From my studies I am well aware of the causes of postpartum and how serious it can be if not recognized and treated appropriatley. But I am wondering if its sprirtual- a dark night of the soul, if you will...
Why so downcast o my soul
why so disturbed within me?

Today I reflected on the phrase "author of salvation" from a worship song we sing. I love this. It reminds me that God had a plan for me before time began..that he authored our salvation before we needed it...when we were still good...before we sinned..He had a plan for us...and I know He has a plan for me. I know he saw my circumstances before I felt the weight of them..before I was overwhelmed by them...

Beyond Measure...

I have decided Jeremy Camps song beyond measure is the theme song to my life. It is so fitting.Its as if I could have written every line by myself. I feel so blessed in this season of my life. It certanly comes with its challenges- having a newborn and a three year old- exisiting on virtually no sleep and still trying to maintain a great marriage and home..I just feel so blessed..God is so good..He is so faithful. I am in a place where I am learning so much more and i can feel his presence so greatly in my life..

The lyrics are below for your reading pleasure:

The fog has finally cleared to see,The beautiful life you've given meTo feel the breeze of my newborn's gentle breathWith one to walk hand in hand,To share this life that you have plannedIt's like a storybook with dreamsThat are meant to see every next step is an extraordinary sceneI know that I've been,Given more than beyond measure,I come alive when,I see beyond my fearsI know that I've been given more than earthly treasure,I come alive whenI've broken down and given You controlI've faced a great tragedy,But have seen the works of what You bringA display of faith that You give,I don't know if I will ever understandThe depth of what it is You've done inside,But I know that I won't find any worth apart from YouI know that I've been,Given more than beyond measure,I come alive when,I see beyond my fearsI know that I've been given more than earthly treasure,I come alive whenI've broken down and given You controlEverything that I haveHas been given so unselfishlyAnd shown that even when I don't deserveYou always show the fullness of Your loveI know that I've been,Given more than beyond measure,I come alive when,I see beyond my fearsI know that I've been given more than earthly treasure,I come alive whenI've broken down and given You controlWhen I've broken down and given You control

Mommyhood...

So I know this may be premature too say..but I LOVE being a mommy of two. Andrew and I came home from the hospital on a Saturday afternoon and he returend to work Monday morning..It was me and the boys from that point on...

After a year of preparing I was a little apprehensive about the change our lives were about to take bringing a newborn into the house. I think part of it was a fear of the unknown, wondering how I would handle the loss of certain freedoms again..mostly selfish things..
I had also witnessed people not handle the transition from one to two very well. I was getting geared up..hoping for the best but preparing for the worst..How would I handle lack of sleep and a super active toddler..how would the whole nursing thing work? How would I ever keep up with the house or errands or bills or taxes?
I have to say that thus far I am pleasantly suprised..I am more sleep deprived today than I have been for the last two weeks..and I am feeling pretty emotional but the last two weeks have been so fantastic. I feel like I have come into my element. I love this.I love my boys. I love this life that He has given me..
I think part of it is my personality. I love having alot to do. I love a challenge. I love that I have my moms "survivor" spirit that kicks in when most needed...but above all I feel the Lord sustaining me and giving me supernatural strength to make it through the day..I feel people praying for me and I feel so blessed.

New Life....

I feel you sustaining me in the still of the night

As I rock my child; you hold me tight

And as I look at the face of this new born son

I cannot fathom the depths of what you've done

A sacrifice I couldn't make

But I'm so glad that you took my place..

How is it that you love me; more than I love him?

When hes seemingly so innocent and I constantly sin..

As all of creation looks to you; I look at creation in my hands

What could it be; this life you've planned?

And as I abide in you for just a little while..

You make my world as new as this little mans smile

And sometimes I think about how close he is to you

Coming from your hands and placed inside my womb..

Just on the other side; I wonder

Did she hold him too?

Did she kiss his face and call his name; before I even knew?

Before the pink and blue....

(to be cont...)

Cry From a Broken Heart...

Brought me to my knees
to fight for the sacred..its just about time
it comes crashing down..wholly broken and surrendered
Will I ever ever wear my crown?

Torn to pieces because two became one
Now my flesh cries out for the sake of our sons

Miserable surrender..but your saving me..
I want more for my boys so take it from this house
Anointed with oil..cast out in the dirt
I have never known this betrayal or the darkness of this hurt

5 years gone
We pay the price for the weight of our sin
How in the world did we let him get in?

Not in this place...with me by your side
Where do I go in whom can I hide?
Security no more...just naked, bruised and raw...

You think I am standing in the kitchen..
But I am curled up on the floor..
chasing corners in my mind..
and wanting so much more...

You were my protector but you wore my heart in shame
what was it that you had to gain?

It was from the broken glass I always had to hide
Each time made it reality of the deepest fear inside..

Never good enough for what I want to be
He reminds me I am his child and I can be set free

Come Lord Jesus and Give me Peace...
Hold me up Lord.I need your strength..

A Diet Coke Culture

We want the taste without all the calories. We want the results and the rewards without putting in the work. We want the best but want to give the least. This is the culture we live in today. We are constantly seeking short cuts…to get out of debt, to make money, to lose weight…have they found that magic pill yet? The key to getting in shape gets shorter and shorter. Instead of putting in the hard work that comes along with eating healthy and exercising we are being sold “the 3 hour diet” and “the 12 second sequence.” Why do 3 sets in the gym when you can get results in 12 seconds?
Even the technology that comes out allows us to make shortcuts. Instead of calling people to say “hi” or to talk over a problem; we receive or send emails and text messages. Technology has allowed us to debate in forums online and to “attend” small groups without even leaving the comfort of our own home. Our communication is becoming more and more impersonal and our relationships are going to suffer because of it.
It’s a diet coke culture- the illusion of being satisfied for very little. We are taking shortcuts and buying into things that taste good and seem good but are ultimately poisoning our souls and our relationships. How many of us have refinanced our homes to pay off debt? Only to get in more debt… or bought something from an infomercial that promises a “quick change” or a “new you.” Only to find out we got ripped off… I know I am guilty.
In an attempt to “simplify” our lives we have actually made them more complicated. Instead of being satisfied with a cell phone that we can carry anywhere.. we want the one that takes pictures, emails, and connects to the internet. We aren’t satisfied with the new car- we want the one with the gps, the dual dvd players, and all the other stuff that I didn’t even know I needed…because it will make my life “easier.”
My question is does it make life easier? I think more often than not the very things we think will simplify our lives and relationships actually make them more complicated…Jesus said he came so we might have and enjoy life in abundance... and his principles are simple…simplicity is powerful…and my goal is to embrace that as I embrace a life that glorifies him..

Its Not in YOUR control.....

You know I write these blogs when something is burning inside my heart- and its not the heart burn that comes with being 7 mos preggers... It is not my desire just to vent and let you know what I have been learning or struggling with but it is truly my desire that someone will read this and will be ministered to...that they may be in the exact season where this is a word for them....

How often do we worry? I personally struggle with anxiety and worry alot. I think alot of it is in ones personality as to whether they are a worrier or not. I am. Andrew is not. But as adults and Christ followers we can make the decision to CHOOSE not to worry. My life long struggle with eating disorders, I believe, is rooted in anxiety...and that is something I can choose to overcome..

There are so many dimensions to "worry" it is amazing. We engage in it more often than we even realize. Have you ever thought about those situations that make you angry when it comes to another believer as "worry."? To get angry over what someone has said, or didnt say? what someone was wearing? How so and so spends their money? that this person watches this tv show or that one? Or listens to this kind of music? havn't you ever gotten angry about how someone else lives their life? I am talking one believer to another....we are so quick to judge each other..and I am not talking a righteous anger...when we hear or see someting that just ticks us off.... and we dwell on it and play out scenarios and wonder "how in the world could they do/think/say/believe that?....

Jesus tells us that by worrying we can not add a single hour to our life...When I get to the end of my life I want to have spent as few minutes and hours worrying about things that are out of my control as possible. Sure, people are going to do things that tick us off, close friends are going to do things we don't approve of, organizations are going to thrive that are ungodly, politicians may be put in office that didn't get our vote, fellow beleivers are going to hurt us....But it comes down to this: How other people live and what they do is not within our means to control and therefore worry about....All we can do is live our lives and choose to respond in a way that is honoring to the Lord. I believe it was Eleanor Roosevelt who said that noone can make you feel inferior without your consent....How we respond and act is our choice....the choices others make are ultimatley their own and will be for God to judge....take a load off and stop worrying about other people...live your life...He has given you a blessed one....

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Whats is a name?

I have always been fascinated with names.It is usually the first thing we get to learn about someone we meet. It often carries with it a family tradition or a story. When I was pregnant with Roman I couldn't fathom the responsibility that came with naming a son. I scoured baby name books and the bible. I prayed and sought wisdom...I knew I wanted something bold and strong.I wanted something with a meaning that he could grow into...a story he could learn.. With this next pregnancy I wanted no different...a future warrior for Christ would need a bold name, I thought...

I have been studying the name of Jesus this week. This name that we call upon in prayer,..for healing..in despair...and in praise...the name that is above all names..., Jesus. I always cringe when I hear someone misuse this name....the name that is so powerful..the name that could move mountains for them if only they knew....

In biblical culture names were chosen for meaning or for prophetic reasons. Jesus was named "savior" because he was to save people from their sins. I love that in biblical times Jesus was a common name...HE did after all come to save common people...like me.

Do we really understand the power that is in the name ,Jesus? I think too often we tack it onto the end of a prayer or say it when we are supposed to. But when we have faith behind it and in it..the name,Jesus, enables us to live a life with power and purpose.

The early church was hoppin' with activity. healings and exorcisms heappening all over the place. I believe that these early Christians knew and understood the power in HIS name..and they used it...they released faith in this name and they experienced miracles because of it......

The name of Jesus- I have never experienced anything more powerful than His name. It is the name above all names (phil 2:11). There is life in HIS name (John 20:30-31).. It is the name that has the power to save (Acts 4:30). I get chills knowing that one day every tongue will confess His name..(phil 2:9-11)...Jesus !

Dear Mom

I can't believe how time has flown since you left.So much has happened but it feels like you have been gone forever....I wish I could remember your face more clearly or how your voice sounded. There is so much you have missed and I miss you more every day. I can't wait to get to heaven tell you about the kind of woman I became... About how much I grew to love our Jesus....


We went to say good bye to you today ,mom. It was so surreal. I can't believe your gone. I can't comprehend that I could search the whole earth andI wouldn't be able to find you. When I saw your closed casket I wanted to tear it open. I wanted so badly to see you one more time, mom.Do I really have to go on without you?...

Andrew took me on our first date tonight, mom. You were right about how he sparkles. I think he is the one, mom. He even asked to hold my hand. He took me on a carriage ride around Charleston and then we ate at blossoms....


I moved back in with dad today , mom. I was going to get an apartment with some of my friends but I didn't want dad to be alone. There is something familar and warm about being at home although there are memories of you around every corner...Sometimes I walk into the kitchen expecting to see you there...standing at the stove or coming down the stairs. I miss you so much mom...you made this house such a beautiful home....


Andrew asked me to marry him tonight mom.I am engaged! can you believe it? He washed my feet as Jesus did. He said he wanted to serve me forever. He dried my feet with a towel that was embroidered with "Lindsay will you marry me?." I am going to plan our wedding now, mom. Remember the dress we picked out a few weeks before you died? It was so silly. ..I didn't even have a boyfriend then. But I am so glad we did.That day was so special. You made me feel so beautiful! The dress you liked...that you said was your favorite....I am going to wear that dress, mom.


I got married today,mom.I missed you so much. We laid flowers for you...lillys..your favorite. It was such a beautiful day,mom. Now I am a wife. I found a letter that you started to write to me for my wedding day but you never finished..I wonder what you were going to say....What advice did you have for me...I miss you so so much, mom...


I graduated from college today, mom. I got two bachelors degrees. Can you believe it? I remember the summer before I started college you were so excited about it. Everywhere you went you would tell people that I was going to college. You were so proud.It has been hard, mom. After you died I wanted to quit. It was so hard to go back..but I knew you wanted me to finish. Tonight we had a graduation party. Dad gave me my present from you. A beautiful ring and a letter. You really thought of everything...I am going off into the real world now , mom....are you watching?


Roman James was born today,mom. A boy! He is the most beautiful baby. He looks like a Taylor. I gave him his middle name after your dad. I can't believe I am a mother. Now I realize how much love you had for me.I keep imagining how happy you would be...your a grandma,mom! Your first grandchild!..............

I finished my Masters degree today ,mom.I can only imagine how you would be throwing me the biggest party.It was hard work, mom. Especially having Romie and working, too.I rolled up my diploma and put it in the linen closet...I so badly wanted to call you and show it to you....

I am pregnant again,mom. Another boy! His name is going to be Jude Michael. I am so excited to have another son. You are going to be a grandma again. Roman is excited too. He often points to my tummy and says "Baby Dude." I am due March 15th right before the anniversary of your death...that time of year is so hard but God had given me another reason to rejoice.......

God is Good....All the Time.

Here is something a little more personal for all of you faithful readers who check back....I will get better at posting on this blog I have been so tired lately and my laptop is down...

Andrew has been saying alot to me lately "Man, God is so good, He is just so good"I know Andrew has always been aware of Gods goodness but it has been making me think about that statement and how we as Christ Followers use it.
When Andrew says it is usually refers to his work and in turn how much money he is bringing home. We have been on an amazing journey for the past two years, specifically with his work. In January of 2005 Andrew was told to leave his job at our church for which we had served for 10 years. This news was unexpected and devastating to him. I had to watch the man I love go through a whirlwind of emotions from anger to denial to sobbing like a baby. It was hard to watch him question and find purpose in that season. It was also almost unbearable for me as a wife to watch the treatment of his situation and to be able to do nothing about it. Not long after that our benefits from the church stopped as did his salary which although he had switched from full to part time a year earlier, paid our bills. Andrew had been working construction on the side to supplement his church income. He picked this up full time and started working nights delivering pizzas. Even then we were only just able to make ends meet and some monthes couldn't buy enough food or pay the mortgage. It was a very hard and scary time. I personally was worn out from working on my masters full time while working the morning shift as a personal trainer at the gym.Just for dramatic effect can I add that I had to get up at 3:30 am to be at the gym to get off at 10am to care for a toddler throughout the day while working on graduate courses...

Then came the opportunity to buy a business. We had never thought we would own our own business. I married Andrew with the knowledge that I was going to be a ministers wife and I had prepared myself for everything that comes with that role.Andrew had never pictured himself outside the ministry or Seacoast so to be faced with the decision to buy a business was crazy to us. As we pursued the Lord and took this path we had so much confirmation it was amazing. The doors just opened and shut all at the right time and we had so much peace. We knew that we eventually would make more money in this business than in the ministry and Andrew was excited to be able to play the role of "provider" for more than just our basic needs.

As this year comes to a close Andrew and I have been amazed at the financial blessings of the last few monthes. We have had some enourmous bills to take care of and going into the "slow" season of the year and Christmas coming up we were a little anxious at times.

God has shown up and taken care of all of our needs, our huge bills, and some of our wants while allowing Andrew to be at home alot more...


So I have been thinking about the statement we declare in our excitement when we visibally see a blessing that "God is so good."

Is HE "more good" now than he was a year ago or two years ago when we felt like we were in a pit? Is God good now because we have a larger income or because Andrew is able to participate in our family life more? Do we only declare Gods goodness when things are seemingly under OUR control and going as we would have them go?


No. God is the same. As our circumstances and situations change and move we can be assured that our God does not.He is never changing. As the 8th Chapter of Hebrews tells us, He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
He is the Alpha and Omega...the beginning and the end....

We can be assured that our God does not waver as our circumstance and relationships do. He who is the Glory of Israel does not lie or change his mind; for he is not a man, that he should change his mind." (1 Samuel 15:29). His promise to us is that HE is faithful. Even when we are in despair or without hope in the night HE can not abandon us because he cannot disown himself. We can be certain that although nothing in this world is certain.He is.

I have seen repeatedly in my own life how people and circumstances fail us. Relationships come and go, family members pass away..even the things we like to think are certain securities such as the love of our children or our marriages are not....But Gods promise to us is that HE does not change as the shifting shadows and that every good and perfect gift is from above.(james 1:17)
So often we praise God for the good things we see but his promise to us is that HE works everything out for our good. EVERYTHING.
My God is no less good in certain situations just because I think I am in a tough season and can't get my pea sized brain around a reason why.....

But I am like an olive tree
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God's unfailing love
for ever and ever.........xoxoxoxox Lindsay

Avoiding the Appereance of Evil..........

I never know how to respond at this time of year when I get asked by an aquantance or store caashier if I am ready for Halloween. Ready for Halloween? really? It actually blows my mind what a huge deal it is. i have read it is second to Christmas..To CHRISTMAS!!!
Let me tell you my thoughts on that.

First of all it just basically creeps me out. Ghosts, goblins, body parts, blood and guts for aisles and asiles of my favorite drug store or walmart...I mean really. How appealing is that? Roman has started to say "that scary" when we pass by something to do with halloween. I always intentionally avoid those places in the store. It gives me the hibbie jibbees...and for good reason.

I often wonder if people even know what they are "celebrating" or are they just caught up in the ignorance of costumes and candy. There are many different versions of where hlloween originated but most historical accounts are consistant with this:

Halloween culture can be traced back to the Druids, a Celtic culture in Ireland, Britain and Northern Europe. Roots lay in the feast of Samhain, which was annually on October 31st to honor the dead.

Samhain signifies "summers end" or November. Samhain was a harvest festival with huge sacred bonfires, marking the end of the Celtic year and beginning of a new one. Many of the practices involved in this celebration were fed on superstition.

The Celts believed the souls of the dead roamed the streets and villages at night. Since not all spirits were thought to be friendly, gifts and treats were left out to pacify the evil and ensure next years crops would be plentiful. This custom evolved into trick-or-treating.

They often dressed in costumes consiting of animal heads and fur.so next time you dress your child for this "holiday" just know where it originated.

As Chrisitians I believe we have a whole different responsibility this time of year. I don't believe its about being legalistic. I just know what the bible teaches, what God loves and what he hates, and what we are called to. The Apostle Paul teaches us that we (as followers of Christ) are to avoid the very APPEREANCE of evil. We are to be set apart and different from the world. Of course, it would be fun to dress our kids in cute costumes (lions as opposed to witches) and take them to get candy...but then we are no different from the world. I personally dont believe you can participate and not celebrate.

For those of us who are in Christ, we are able to discern and learn the heart of God. To love what HE loves and hate what HE hates. I drive around and see houses decorated with grave stones and demonic loooking creatures or haunted houses that are supposed to be fun and I think..nothing Godly lives there. But it sure does look like a great breeding ground for the demonic. Nothing of Gods nature is attracted to dark and evil places for in HIM there is no darkness.

So in conclusion I despise Halloween and all that is associated with it. I can't wait for it to be over..i just want it to go away!!

Some Scriptures:

Proverbs 11:19 Take your stand with God's loyal community and live, or chase after phantoms of evil and die

As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance 1 peter 1:14

Dear friend, do not imitate what is evil but what is good. Anyone who does what is good is from God. Anyone who does what is evil has not seen God. 3 John 1:11

Phillipians 1: 27Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel 28without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God. 29For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him, 30since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have

Phillipians 4: Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

I LOVE this song...its by casting crowns.

Here I am Lord, and I'm drowningin your sea of forgetfulness the chains of yesterday surround me I yearn for peace and restI dont want to end up where you found meand it echoes in my mind,keeps me awake tonight
I know you cast my sin as far as the east is from the westand I stand before you now,as if I've never sinnedbut today I feel like I'm just one mistake awayfrom you leaving me this way
and Jesus can you show mejust how far the east is from the westcause I can't bear to see the man I've been rising up in me againin the arms of your mercy I find rest,cause you know just how far the East is from the Westfrom one scarred hand to the other.
I start the day the war beginsendless reminding of my sintime and time again your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm intoday I feel like I'm just one mistake away,from you leaving me this way and Jesus can you show me,just how far the East is from the Westcause I can't bear to see the man I've been rising up in me againin the arms of your mercy I find rest'cause you know just how far the East is from the Westfrom one scarred hand to the other.
I know you've washed me white,turned my darkness into lightI need your peace to get me through,to get me through this nightcan't live by what I feelbut by the Truth your Word reveals,I'm not holding on to youbut you're holding on to me,you're holding on to me
Jesus you knowjust how far the East is from the WestI don't have to see the man I've been, rising up in me againin the arms of your mercy I find rest'cause you know just how far the East is from the West,just how far,from one scarred hand to the other.